Maintenance happened!

I suggest you grab a beverage of your choice before reading this baby, it’s seriously long!

Over the last few months (basically since the new year) a lot of people have mentioned that I was losing weight quite rapidly & that my body was starting to look a little unhealthy. When I say unhealthy, I mean boney. Even though I haven’t been losing numbers on the scale, my body has changed dramatically. I have also been noticing that every week or so I find a new bone or an old bone might become more noticeable. At first when I was discovering new bones, it was like finding a needle in a haystack. Now it’s gotten to the point where they are everywhere & it’s not so exciting.

Yesterday, I able to see my lovely dietitian Revi who had a baby girl a few months back. After she had a closer look at my body, she informed me to STOP losing weight. I was a little shocked at first because I had a weight I wanted to be & I wasn’t there yet, I was about 10 kgs or 22 lbs away from the weight I thought I’d like to see on the scale.
When I first started on my weight loss journey, I promised myself that I’d be the judge of when I needed to stop losing weight. This did not happen at all, I got caught up in the losing weight cycle & was letting a damn scale determine how my body ended up. I got stuck in my own head & was ignoring the signs that I wasn’t making the right choice by wanting to lose those last few kgs or lbs. I’m not going to delve into the signs but let’s just say headaches were involved.

I’m now officially on maintenance.

I wasn’t quite sure how to react when Revi told me I was to go on maintenance now or I’ll enter the terrible road that ends in an unhealthy mind, body & soul. During our session we talked about so much. Things like the fact that I’ve always taken pride in the fact that I’ve lost my weight the healthy way & that if I continued losing the way I have been, I would be doing my body damage. We also spoke at length about if I had come to her at my current weight & told her I wanted to lose 10 kgs or 22 lbs that she would have gotten the impression that I had an eating disorder.

I’m scared, I’m nervous, I’m excited, I’m about a million emotions right now. I’m worried that I’ll gain weight, I’m worried I’ll lose more weight, I’m nervous to venture out of my weight loss mindset but most of all I’m excited to see how the NEXT 12 months of my journey goes. I’m excited to tone my body up & to watch my loose skin disappear.

To keep my self in check I’ve decided to become a FOOD BLOGGER. I’ll keep doing a monthly weigh in & most importantly tell myself that I’m a healthy weight for my body type. For a few weeks I’ve been very obsessed with my body, I’ve been examining it closely & in a small way, I’ve been picking on myself. THIS ENDS RIGHT NOW!

I’m not fat anymore, I’m not over weight anymore. I’m far from it, I’m a healthy 70.9 kgs, 5’8” girl who has just lost an incredible amount of weight over 16 months. I’m not the same unhappy, unhealthy girl I used to be. I need to keep reminding myself this.
I’m not going to let myself be her again. I’m never going to have to go up a clothing size because I’ve let myself be controlled by food. I’m never going to be unhealthy again.

So, before this becomes the longest post ever I’ll give you a look see at my food since starting maintenance. (Be nice, I’m only new at this.) I’m going to have to start making my food look prettier.

My first meal was of course a nicely prepared restaurant meal. I ordered a small size & this baby came out. I made it through about half of this AM-MAZINGLY delicious Seafood Risotto. I was my usual picky self & asked the waiter to cook with no oil, use a stock/garlic bass instead of a heavy cream base & to load it up with grilled seafood. This baby had it all, prawns, mussels, octopus, squid, calamari & scollops. Granted, it was a seafood restaurant. I had a lovely bottle of sparkling water with the meal also.I was so full after this meal but it felt great to be able to indulge & not feel guilty.
This morning, the chef(*1) tried her hat at scrambled egg whites & boy did she fail, it was a tiny bit watery & she only used 2 when it really needed 3 egg whites. Wish her better luck tomorrow will you?
With the whites, I had a glass of milk, baked beans & 1 wholemeal crumpet with vegemite.
My lovely mother asked me if I wanted to defrost the lovely fruit cocktail I made months ago & have it as my afternoon snack. “Yes mother of mine, that’s a great idea” I said right back. I present you with a scrumptious fruit cocktail in my Starbuck’s cup of course. I’m pretty sure this baby had frozen berries, fresh mango & orange. As I said I made it a month ago & can’t remember exactly what I put in it.Dinner was a MASSIVE bowl of vegetables with a spicy bean sauce. I was in a mexican mood & this was simply perfect. Just what I wanted. It was capsicum, spinach, carrot, celery, eggplant, zucchini, broccoli. Looks disgusting but tasted superb. I had a bottle of water on the side. Desert was a fabulous bowl of fruit & yogurt

We had the worst storm this afternoon & are expected to have rain all weekend but the WORST part was we had hail. It was coming down in buckets & somehow the water came in through my closed window in my bedroom for the second time since living here. The rain was so heavy we couldn’t even see out our windows, it was very angelic actually. Here’s a normal sunny day against the storm.

Remember if you set yourself a goal, you’ll get there & it might even come to you sooner than you were expecting. Being healthy isn’t hard, it’s as easy as deciding you want to live a healthier life & setting mini goal or big goals to get yourself there. JUST DO IT!

*1. The Chef is my lovely adorable mother